Pout Bout

So most of you know that CPS was not represented at the meeting last week. Visits are suspended until CPS makes a ruling as to where and how the visits will proceed. WE have not heard on this. I will post once we know.

Things have been so good around here, until yesterday morning. C has been wanting to wake up before me. She readies herself and then once it is really time to get up, she is all ready to head down stairs and eat. She eats quickly and then wants to snuggle with me on the couch and watch cartoons. Well, yesterday morning I messed up the alarm clock and overslept. 15 minutes after I was supposed to have gone up to get C, she was in the laundry room stomping around and banging into things to wake me. I went in and appologized that my alarm had not gone off which was received with tears and comments about pants she wanted to wear. I informed her that I had just done laundry the day prior and she needed to just wear a pair from her drawer. She STORMED upstairs. The tots were asleep prior to her new rant in her room. I heard mild bangs into the walls and closet doors being "moved" quite firmly. I decided to ignore it and just wait for her to come down. I think she was doing the same- waiting for me to come up.

Finally, 10 minutes before the arrival of her bus, she came down stairs. She began to cry and said she had no time to eat breakfast. Choices, it is all choices. She was up now for over an hour and had just gotten dressed. That is not my fault... anyway, I explained that she would need to hurry. I sat next to her and while she shoveled in the cereal and prayed silently for her. She finished and we prayed together. I talked to her about how she needs to have grace for MOMMY making mistakes. It happens to all of us... I did not intentionally wake up late. She ended up ok and headed off to school.

Homework has been light since we have been back but she is still down on school. She comes home tense. She is starving for my attention and affection and really struggles with controlling everything going on in the house. My sweet, relaxed, gentle child that I had acheived during break seems to be gone again. It frustrates me. I don't know what to do about it, though. I ended up pretty frustrated last night at trying to do something like get a drink for a tot or work with the AASK worker here for the monthly report and C trying to pull me out of it and onto something she wanted me to see or do... not because she needed me or even really had something to say... she just can't handle sharing me. That is so much pressure on me and last night I finally told her that I just can't do so many things at once... It would all just have to wait. I thought she would get mad, but instead, she realized she had gone to far....