School is Hard

We are back and settled back into our routine. Things have been good and we have had a lot of events (such as Cole's birthday and my niece's birthday) to keep us busy and distracted.

I emailed Mrs. M today, C's home room teacher. I had emailed her on Sunday to clarify the homework and got quite a response back. It seems as though C is just really having a hard time focusing on tasks at school. Here at home, too... I had hoped we were doing better since the weekly report looked a bit better. Turns out that C just has a hard time even focusing to begin a difficult task. 15-20 minutes into a class she is finally tuned in and ready to work but at that point, the class is nearing an end and she is about to switch to another class.

I have asked Mrs. M for personal advise, as if she was C's mom. What would she do? I just am at a complete loss as to what to do. I do think the ADHD is better under control but not all the way under control. I intend to increase the 5mg med tomorrow morning which I know will result in a crying and pouting session, complete with pounding fists and a lot of anger. She doesn't want these meds and I don't blame her. I want her to be "normal", too. But wanting it doesn't get it.

Anyway, I asked what she thought about private, public, and home school for a child in this situation. I have not heard back on this. I am really wanting this testing to be done on her and the results to be back. I do not believe for one minute that what she is doing for her education is what is best for her. I don't know what is. I don't have any solution. I just know this isn't working. She came home from school today with a turkey made of her hand that she made during lunch while helping in a kindergarten class. She made it for me and I love it, but it just breaks my heart. The academics are the start of the problem, but only the start.

I want to help her. I want to do what is truly right by her. I have expressed my concerns but have heard no solutions. To every option I can muster, I see pros and cons. I know what she says she wants. She doesn't even know I am considering other options but voices her desires anyway. I just don't know that SHE knows what she is really asking for. She is so desperate to belong that I truly worry about next year. If she was put in a situation with peer pressure toward sex or drugs, I truly feel she would be likely to do it. Just like she did with the detention issue at school. She just wants to belong.

Her teachers say she is immature. Her progress report came back all C's, one D, and one F. Perhaps holding her back a year is the answer. Perhaps not. Yes, she has friends at church but none of you would call them "normal" friends. They aren't socially adept in any way. And I know that if C had other options, she would drop them like a hot cake but the fact that they like her makes them everything she needs right now. And they are good influences so I don't mind. They make her happy and feel like she belongs and I praise God for the role they have in her life and also pray that she never uses them to fill her needs without considering their needs, which I feel often happens.

Anyway... more confusion. No more answers.